Martine McCutcheon has reflected on the loss she is feeling after the sudden death of her younger brother Laurence John (LJ).
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Despite her struggle with grief, the 46-year-old is vowing to keep moving forward for the sake of her seven-year-old son Rafferty.
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Taking to Instagram on Sunday to share a snapshot of their weekend together, Martine wrote: "This little monkey needs me no matter what… He keeps me keeping on.
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"We've been busy this week and weekend and it definitely seems to help me when I see the world continuing to spin and life ticking along… But I can't help but look at people and wonder what their story of grief is?"
On Tuesday, Martine revealed her brother LJ died, aged 31, without medical explanation just weeks prior to his wedding.
Martine shared this heartbreaking post on Sunday
"Life isn't always easy and I think human beings are so brave… I'm in awe," added the TV star. "I've mostly felt out of my body and on autopilot - I think that's my way of being able to deal with my shock and grief, along with my responsibilities simultaneously - And then suddenly, with no apparent trigger, waves of emotion have come crashing over me…"
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On allowing her emotions to come through, Martine explained: "If I'm alone, or with Jack in a safe space I allow it. I know grief is an expression of the huge love I felt for my brother and that I must feel that too in order to heal.
"I also find talking about him and laughing at some of the good times helps me to balance the sadness scales every so slightly.
© Photo: InstagramMartine's brother was 31 years old when he passed away
"Rafferty is on half term now so it will be nice to relax a little with the everyday routine and go with the flow a bit. I have some work on this week which also seems to help me but I'm going to make sure I see the ocean (my healing place) and make some memories with my little one during his holidays."
Martine then thanked her fans for their support, concluding: "Have a wonderful week, thank you again for all of your strength, love and words of encouragement - I can't begin to possibly explain how much it has helped us. Look after each other. XXXX."
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